Testing, 1, 2, 3

Have you ever been in a situation where you were doing something, and then stepped back from whatever you were doing and wondered whether it was real, or whether someone was just testing you? Like the clinical trials we have to do for psych classes, but in real life? (Or what you considered to be real life?) Ever thought on what you were doing, and wondered if maybe someone was running a test on you, to see how you'd react in a certain situation? To see how everyone would react to a given set of parameters? Even thought on it so long that you were certain it must be true, and that someone was definitely watching your behaviour? It's an extremely disheartening, un-empowering, violated way of thinking... It makes you wonder what, if anything, is truly real, and what merely a test of your character, your weakness, or your self-discipline. It makes you feel a little displaced, and a little paranoid.

Sometimes I think of A∑∆ like that, and I truly wonder.